Regarding Amy
Been Awhile
Saturday, October 07, 2006
I know, it’s been awhile. I’ve probably lost the two readers I had. Things have been oh so crazy here. It’s way past my bed time but something inside told me I needed to write. So, I’m writing. I feel the need to be an open book here. So here goes…
I never got the other Disney World pics up, although they are ready to be put up I just haven’t had time. I’m at the point where I feel like I’m all work and no play. Ever feel that way? I’m swamped with work (I’ll be introducing some new sites, as well as re-designs shortly). I feel like I’m drowning in work, and only allowed to come up for air every month or two. My mind runs on working and making money to pay the bills, while my heart runs on needing time to sit in quietness with Jesus. Funny, I just bought a book to read. It has to do with separating my work and my life. I haven’t had time to even start reading it. Anyone else ever feel this way. Like you can’t breathe.
We’ve been singing a LOT! This is good, but hard to get adjusted to. Now we are at a point where we are slowing down for the holidays. I look forward to that, but now I have to get caught up with my work. I really feel our group is fixing to do things that we’ve never even dreamed, and I want to be ready. But man, life is hitting me hard. I really need a break from all the noise in my head reminding me of all the stuff I still need to accomplish. I feel as though Imagine being stuck in quicksand, with no tree branches or rope to grab onto. Nothing available to help you pull yourself out. You feel the sand sucking you in. What’s worse is you feel all alone. TRAPPED!
LOL I guess I just need a life. Most of you probably have no clue as to what I do. That’s ok. Some of you do. Some of you know how much of my heart goes into every little thing I do. Even though that can sound like a good thing, it makes for a very easily broken heart. Sensitive, I guess. I’m all about business. But I love what I do because I get to help artists make a step in a new direction. I get to help artists portray themselves the way they NEED to be portrayed. That’s a heavy burden that most people never know you carry. I love my job, and wouldn’t trade anything for it!
Even when I’m away from work, I’m still never really away. I live, eat, breathe, and sing gospel music. I’m just frustrated that I don’t have enough time, money, and energy to do what I want to do with my business, with my life. I’m sure I’m not the only one that’s ever felt this way.
Tomorrow (today - technically) is Sunday. I’m going to church. But before I go, I’m going to rest in HIS peace. HIS peace passes all understanding. It passes all the noise in my head telling me what I need to do, and what I haven’t done yet. It passes the drowning feeling and pulls me up out of the sand, when I can’t do it myself. Tomorrow I will get my fill to continue on the journey God has placed before me. I will be encouraged by my Pastor’s words, and uplifted by the praise I present to my Heavenly Father.
Tomorrow is another day.
Peace and LOVE!
AM
