Regarding Amy
To Love Online Or Not
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Disclaimer: the only reason this topic is discussed so much is because I live online, I’m single, and everyone around seems to bring it up. So, if I have to hear about it, you have to hear about it. If you don’t wanna hear about it, read someone else’s blog. LOL
So, the last couple weeks have been extremely busy, but I’m starting to work out a routine that I believe is going to work out just fine for me. It actually gives me a couple days off in the week like normal people and now I’m slightly weirded out because I don’t know what to do with myself.
So, I went to Kym’s....Leah accompanied me. We had a blast, ate lots of food, watched a couple of 80’s movies like Can’t Buy Me Love and Girls Just Wanna Have Fun. You know, classics! 
It was just the girls, so we talked about normal “girl” things. The next morning, Mom Brown came up to the house and we all had donuts and discussed “finding the right man”. LOL
Now, for those of you who have been married for quite some time and don’t quite remember the single days, let me inform you of a little bit of what we go through today. Today, there are so many books, know-it-alls, friends, family, etc who surround you constantly telling you that you need to get married. Then there are books, know-it-alls, friends, family, etc who tell you WHY you need to get married and WHY you AREN’T married. Of course, the closer you get to 30, and after you’ve done reached 30 (or more) it seems as though there’s a need to HURRY! Maybe it’s because we are in such a fast paced world, or those special books, know-it-alls, friends, family, etc just want us to be happy like they are. I tend to believe that God created us to have the mentality that it takes two, Two By Two! Between the friends and family setting you up, Self-Help books, Preachers, Teachers, Co-Workers, and everyone else who decides to meddle in your life, there’s no break from the “you need to get married” syndrome.
That being said, a topic I’ve discussed here on my blog several times has come up a couple times in the past month. That topic being INTERNET DATING. I try to do the logical thing, pros and cons. On one hand, IF I were looking at this point in time, there are NO available single guys in this area that are worth the hassle. Most aren’t christians...and the one’s that are do not show any interest in you. In my neck of Nashville, there are TWO single guys. One of which is my brother - Ick! The other is so new, all the single vipers have already turned him into their prey. LOL Literally!
On another hand, I dunno if I wanna PAY some internet service to “hook me up”. I just can’t get that thought process out. I know that if God wants two people together, He will use whatever means available. I just can’t get it out of my mind that you have to PAY to find a potential mate. It just seems like you’re going to the mall and looking for the latest model of MAN.
On one hand, it’s kind of exhilirating! Exciting. Meeting new people...the suspense of not knowing who is out there looking at your profile. But then, there is also the disappointment of not getting any replies, or nobody viewing your profile. The scary people that may be on there.
I just don’t know what my opinion is on this whole online-match-making-thing. Yet another thing to add to my list of things I hate about dating. Too many decisions to be made for something that’s supposed to be so much fun. I do not find it fun but rather a pain in my side. It would’ve been less stressful and easier for me if God would just send a boy with a sign that says “I’m your future husband”. THAT’s my ideal date! LOL
After reading all my comments on my last blog, I supposed I’ll have to get more serious from now on if I want comments! I’m so glad that I’m not alone in my struggles in this life, that others go through the same thing. There is comfort in that.
Right now I’m going to go. Emma is on and it’s such a great movie!
AM OUT!
Never Pushed Past Your Limit
Saturday, May 20, 2006
So, I’m sure I’m no different than anyone else. I know that everyone else goes through times in their lives where they question God. They wonder what their full purpose in life is. Why did you create me here God? Why in this situation, why with this family, why with these friends, why did you choose for me to walk this path? Not that there’s anything wrong with the path, just that there are so many questions unanswered. Am I doing what I need to be doing, if not, what do I need to be doing? Am I going down the right path? Am I saying the things that need to be said? Do I need to turn left, do I need to turn right?
There are days in our lives where we feel so alone, traveling down a road that is dark with little to no light. You can’t see your surroundings and you don’t know what might be coming up ahead. Everything is great when you know the path God has called you on. Sometimes you know the path you’re on is where God has called you, but for some reason, there’s a mile or two that doesn’t look as familiar as what you’ve seen previously. If we’re not careful, we’ll allow fear to grab hold of us and blind us to the light that truly surrounds us. This fear can be disguised as many things...finances, marital problems, fights with friends, lack of confidence, etc.
When times get this way, I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. I want to sleep all my cares away. But I know that’s not the solution. So, I cry out to God. I don’t hear anything back. Why doesn’t he answer our call when we cry out the first time? Maybe it’s much like my best friend, Kym and her baby, Crosslan. Crosslan is learning to crawl, and pick himself up off the floor. Pretty soon he’ll be walking. But occasionally, he looses his grip of the couch or table or whatever he’s using to hold himself up, and he’ll fall. More scared than hurt, he cries. Instead of Kym running to hold him in her arms, sometimes she just speaks to him in a calm voice and says “Crosslan, you’re a big boy. It’s ok, you aren’t hurt. Get back up” He can’t hear her though for all the crying. She has to repeat herself a couple times. Finally he hears her and stops crying and works at getting back up. Sound familiar?
In our own way, we get so wrapped up in our fear that we cry before we’re hurt. We cry so loud, waiting for God to answer. We can’t hear him for all our crying. Eventually, we hear Him. Maybe not audibly. Sometimes it’s in the Word, and other times it’s in a friend’s calm assurance, or a song on the radio. What a relief to finally hear His voice. If we can only learn to stop crying so loud and just listen.
He says, “No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
I like the way The Message translates it: “No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.”
I read that last night and found it quite encouraging. After many days of searching and wondering where God was, which cloud was He behind; I found Him.
The funny thing...Last night, I got in my car driving home from the grocery store. I heard a song on the radio. I knew I’d heard it before. It wasn’t until just not that I realized where. When I taught at Steve Hurst School, a young boy came in singing this song. I knever even realized what the lyrics meant until I heard it on the radio last night. He may never know the doors opened by singing that song.
I went to the store again this afternoon, and as soon as I turned on my car, this song came on, as if in sync with my whole world! It’s performed by Barlow Girl. Below are the lyrics, I dunno, maybe it will hit you like it hit me:
I waited for you today
But you didn’t show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you’d be there
And though I haven’t seen you
Are you still there?
Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can’t feel you by my side
So I’ll hold tight to what I know
You’re here and I’m never alone
And though I cannot see you
And I can’t explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You’ve placed in my life.
We cannot separate
‘Cause you’re part of me.
And though you’re invisible
I’ll trust the unseen.
AM OUT!
PS...New Sunday Edition Pics can’t be posted till we got a few shots picked out for our new CD Cover. Sorry, Rev! They turned out pretty cool though, thanks to our friend Chris Wooten!
Say Cheese
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Tomorrow (or later today - depending on how you wanna look at it) we are going to be taking photos for our new project. We are too excited. Everything seems to be coming together nicely. We have 2 more songs left to lay down, and then some choir background stuff on another song. We hope to get in within the next week to finish up some of it.
It’s gonna be great, I can’t wait for it to come out. I know that you all are going to be able to notice the hard work all of us (group, producers, etc) have put into this.
I’m off to get some beauty sleep...Lord knows I’m gonna need it for tomorrow!!
AM OUT!
Good Times
Monday, May 01, 2006
This weekend was a blast. Mostly yesterday. I got to spend a bit of time with my bestest friend in the whole world. She was extraordinarily goofy, which just reminded me of the first time I met her.
Ten years ago this year...Steve Hurst is responsible. We both attended his Vocal School. I was told by Steve that he didn’t have a roomate for me, so I would most likely be by myself. He said, "Unless I know you’ll be best of friends, I won’t send anyone to your room". Ha! LOL While putting my clothes away, getting ready for the two week stay, I hear a knock on the door. I opened the door, thinking it was going to be a roomie across the hall, but NO. There she stood! First thing she says, "HI!! My name is Kym...Steve said we were going to be best friends!"
OMG...I was so scared! LOL She was way too chipper for me. As she started unpacking, we got to talking and found out we had a LOT in common. After that day, we were inseperable. I don’t know how Steve knew that I needed her in my life, but I’m glad he sent her my way. She keeps me laughing at myself and definitely makes sure I stay humble. LOL Our second year attending the school together was as if we had never been apart. We laughed and cut up. I’m not sure we really learned anything! LOL
Good times were had at Steve’s school. Kym and I almost got struck my lightening. I believe it hit right across the alley from where we were. Stupid us...we were running across the campus barefoot and holding coke cans in our hands. It was totally like cartoon...when the lightening hit, we both stopped, looked at each other, screamed, and then ran as fast as we could!! ROFLOL
Then of course who could forget John Tidwell and Ben Scroggs giving all of us the Hat Gospel. Staying up till 3:00 am laughing hysterically. Singing in the stairwells. Meeting forever friends. Crushing on boys...Kym even married her crush. My biggest crush was "Clark". His real name was Isaac, but I thought he looked like Clark Kent, so that’s what I called him.
It’s amazing to see what God has done in 10 years. There are a few people who attended the school back then who are now with major groups. To name a few, Paul Smith and Chris Weaver of Crossway, Jason Waldroup of Greater Vision, Josh Garner of Florida Boys, Lauren Talley, and I’m sure there’s more that my brain can’t think of. See if you can guess who the one’s pictured below are!!
I gotta get to bed. Ya’ll enjoy the old pics...and if you see these people, don’t let them know I have them posted on here! LOL
Pic 1 & 2: Kym the first year I met her
Pic 1: Kym being goofy Pic 2: Me and Kym
Kym and “Clark Kent”!
AM OUT!!
